D-60! (Tomorrow but oh well!)

I just faced the scale and as expected I was pleased with the results!

I updated my monthly stats page as well.

So here’s how I’m doing with this Last 100 days of the year challenge:

I haven’t binged in a looong time, so that is just awesome to me. I have also made an effort to socialize more, and be more active.

Well, we’re not even halfway into this challenge! I hope more good things are in store in the next 60 days!

Back!

I’m back! I really tried to take care of myself during these three weeks on the road, and I hope for a good weighin tomorrow!

I’m terribly tired, but I will still go out and see a friend this afternoon. It’s one of my main goals, to keep in touch with people and not stay in my little bubble.

I will post my weighin tomorrow! (It will count for D-60 which is Nov 2nd…)

100 last days of 2009 –

So far I’ve lost 0.4 kg, gained 2 kg of muscle (or so says my scale…), lost 1.1% of bodyfat…

So even though I’ve actually gained this month (0.8 kg), I feel like I’ve taken the appropriate measures so as to stop the damage before it had become too late.

I’m now motivated again, ready to be happy and take care of myself!

In one week I’m flying to S ingapore, then M alaysia, then M ongolia (eeee!!!), and then U zbekistan. I feel so much more comfortable than last year at the same period when I went to St Petersburg for the same event I’m going to S ingapore for. Mostly I’m more comfortable in my own skin, but also my body has changed a lot.

I’ve started this journey about one year ago. I’m pretty pleased with the results. Even though my weightloss isn’t spectacular, I haven’t had any ups and downs in terms of losing and gaining. It’s been slow and steady… mostly slow LOL!

I should NOT be bummed or ashamed that I only lost 10 kilos in that period. I’ve taken great steps in changing my mindset and finding peace.

So let’s keep on kicking ass for those last days of 2009!

100 last days – so far…

… so good!

I spent Saturday with a girlfriend I hadn’t seen in ages. I did a yoga DVD and spent Sunday lunch with my Mom.

The weight is going down a little which is a good sign.

Let’s keep it up!

99 days of 2009!

So yesterday was the 100th last day of 2009, but I kind of forgot about it and didn’t weigh in…

I did today and I’m at 99.0 kg which is very fitting for the 99th last day of 2009, don’t you think? Maybe come December 31st I’ll weigh nothing at all! *snort*

I’m making consious efforts to fit in a bit of exercise at nights, even if it’s just some leg scissors on my bed (my lower abs are killing me after doing this yesterday!), or squatting while watching the biggest loser…

I’m also walking to work instead of using my car, and before you congratulate me, I must admit it’s because my engine ventilation is kaput and I don’t want to fix it just now since my car is more a luxury than a necessity.

So… I hope some of you are jazzed and ready to kick ass! We have all of 99 days to finish the year with a bang!

Kaput!

Uh-Oh… I’m writing this post from my work laptop, which by chance I have at home after being in meetings out of the office today.

My home laptop seems to be broken!! It wouldn’t start at first, then finally it did… I just saved all my pictures on my portable hard drive (you need one! Back up your personal pictires or you will cry!), and now it looks like it won’t start again.

The last thing I want is to drop 400 -700€ on a new computer, so maybe I will try to go without… I admit I spend way too much time on the net every evening after I get home from work. Yes, even though I live with my boyfriend. If I find out that the internet is down, I feel all panicky and do everything so it gets fixed.

Yep, maybe another one of those addictions…

So… why don’t I try this… and try to spend evenings web-free…??

Thanks for your recommendations regarding my new exercise routine! Right now my pulled muscle is still hurting, so I really need to let it heal!!

Exercise.

So as you’ve seen, in the last 100 days of 2009, one of my goals is to choose a form of exercise. Why not start now?

The current reason is that I pulled a muscle in the backside of my thigh, so I’m letting it heal now.

The other reason is that starting the end of next week, I will be abroad a lot: Uzbekistan, Singapore, Malaysia, and Mongolia (sooo excited about Mongolia!). So I can’t sign up for a gym or a class until I get back, or I would pay for nothing. In the meantime, I want to decide what to do.

Choices:

-Yoga

I love yoga, but there are no classes near where I live. I would like to have private lessons, so maybe I should look into that and have some once a week. I could manage to go on Saturdays…

-Gym

I love the gym. BUT I never seem to be motivated to go after a long day at work. There are always excuses: where am I going to park? If I’m not in my car, how am I going to carry my kit?

On the other hand, I love the variety of stuff that I can do at the gym: lifting, taking classes, doing cardio on machines. They even have yoga classes there. Clearly I’m more in favor of this choice.

-Swedish gym classes

These are big classes where everyone is around the prof, and we do aerobics, a little abs and butt exercise, and it’s very lively… etc.

Last year I had a gym subscription, which I paid 500 € for (around 700$). I went three times in the whole year. That’s around 200$ a session.

Granted, last year I had been in a bad place. Depressed, ashamed, you name it. I started going again just one week before the end of my gym membership…

I still have until I get back from abroad to decide… Care to tell me what you think?

Last 100 days of 2009: D-5

I feel myself slipping a little bit, coming a bit unfocused.

These last few days I have pulled a muscle and gone though horrible PMS, and I have gained 2 kilos (about 4 lbs). I didn’t gain it all in a week, it’s been more like a slow gain since the beginning of the month.

Added to that, the fact that I have been maintaining/losing only a pound or so a month since July… I need to REFOCUS!

Now, I won’t do anything drastic, because that just doesn’t work for me and as a bulimic for 15+ years, it would not be a smart thing to just go and “diet”, like follow a very strict menu…

BUT, I have set some ground rules, very general rules, and I plan to be committed to making a change as we approach the last 100 days of the year (September 23rd).

Here’s the deal:

I will also have weekly weighins instead of monthly, so I can just keep myself in check for a while.

So, who’s with me?!

Big steps, little steps

Last week at my doc’s, I confessed that I wasn’t really seeing any friends. I always kind of let them go, and after a while I’m scared or embarassed to see them again. Most of the time I also think “he/she will see how fat I’ve gotten”…

So I decided to contact a girlfriend I hadn’t seen in a year and a half, and we met on Sunday. We had a really good time, and we decided to not let that much time go without seeing each other. It felt really good and made me happy (simple as that!)

Thennnn… after we parted ways, I was walking down the street when a bus I could take passed me by. I decided to make a run for it… and pulled a muscle in my thigh… OWIE!!!

So now I have three days off of work (I go back tomorrow), I’m bored to tears, but I know I need to let my muscle heal or it will annoy me for weeks!

*sigh*

Two things I like: jezebel.com, and Crystal Renn!

image from evans.co.uk

There’s an article on Jezebel about Crystal Renn and her transition from starved model to “plus size” (she’s a 12) model. She’s written a book Hungry: A Young Model’s Story of Appetite, Ambition and the Ultimate Embrace of Curves which I’m going to buy, once it’s available as a softcover! LOL

Beth Ditto at Evans

Beth Ditto, lead singer of Gossip (whose songs I love BTW), designed a line for plus-size UK store Evans. Now I’m all for any kind of hyping efforts in the field of plus size clothes, but this is just ridiculous.

I don’t know anyone who would wear this, plus sized or not.

Check out the designs here: Beth Ditto @ Evans

I mean, come on!

Give me Kiyonna every day!

In other news, Anthropologie now ships to France (YAY!), only carries sizes up to 14 (BOO!).

Nah, what I mean is that they don’t have a plus size line. I couldn’t fit into any of their pants (please see pic below for reference LOL). But in all honesty, I did find a lot of XLs and Ls. I fit into XLs tops, sometimes Ls, but who am I kidding, the stuff I *love* would look ugly on me.

As I’m writing this, I’m wondering if this isn’t an excuse. Yeah, this top would let my fat arms be exposed, a stomach roll or two would appear, but maybe I’m tired of hiding?

Why should I wait “until I’m thin”?

You know what? I’m gonna order one of these clothes that “I wish I could wear but am too fat too”. I’m gonna wear them NOW! I’ll let you know what I get.

PS: no miniskirts, not now, not ever! LOL